Lonely nights for me are now a thing of the past, which of course is a good thing but not too long ago I was having those lonely nights every night for over a year and they sure wasn’t fun, mind I do think in the process I did consume a lot of wine which on some aspects helped blot away that I felt so lonely.
Friends and work colleagues set me up on a number of blind dates and they did leave me wondering if they knew me at all, the men were not my type at all plus they were all about my age which is what I didn’t want, I wanted a real man who knew how to make me happy both in and out of the bedroom, I’m not saying sex is the most important thing but it does help if chemistry is there because if it’s not you may as well forget it there and then.
So I decided the only way to feel redundant and get my life back on track was to make myself more available and make more of an effort, the first thing was an entire new wardrobe I was sick to death of wearing the same of stuff and I also treat myself to new makeup, that’s what makes me feel great.
People started to notice straight away, I think it also helped as I dyed my hair to a nice blonde colour and really was making an effort and yes I did notice a lot more men taking note of me when walking down a street or in to a pub, I did even notice that I turned a couple of the guys heads at work, the ones that normally never took any notice of me, the upside to this all was my confidence going from zero to cloud nine in a matter of days.
The next thing I needed was a date so with my new found confidence I decided to try an adult dating site no harm in trying which was now my motto, I wasn’t really sure what I was looking for I didn’t mind having a casual sex partner as long as it stayed that way and didn’t get complicated but at the same time I wouldn’t have minded a relationship, just something to keep me happy and not lonely at night.
I ended up having a date with a guy who was just looking for fun in his life nothing to full on, he had done relationships and none had worked out to well so I think he didn’t want to get burnt again so held back and just wanted fun that relationships bring. The date went well and from then on we have spent a lot of time together and yes at the minute it is just fun but we do talk a lot and have a good time, who knows what might happen but at the minute it’s all good.