To me there is nothing more liberating than the power that sex gives me and I feel in total control, which in turn increases my confidence and I must admit I do feel rather sexy when it does happen, I think on the other hand though my adult dating partner finds it a nightmare sometimes when I use it as a weapon against him to get what I want, I know its naughty yet I just cannot help myself sometimes, it’s actually like I get a power trip from it.
I think this has all stemmed from my working life where I have a very bossy boss who likes things done her way and there is no compromise on it either, I think she gets a kick of being able to be the dominator in the work place because looking at her husband you know who runs the house. I have found though the more I work their the more my outlook is changing, some would say for the better whilst others would say for the worst and really there is only one person who thinks that and it’s my man.
I used to be a shy retiring type who would agree with the majority to just keep things simple and then I didn’t have the confrontation which I never liked, even at home I never argued with him just said yes you are right to me it was just easier to keep the peace, well that was until I started working where I am now and from the first day I knew I was being a doormat for everyone to walk over and most people were definitely taking me for granted.
This made me realise things had to change all around me from friends riming asking for lifts at stupid time of night, when I first said no they laughed down the phone thinking I was playing a joke but when they realised I was being serious they were gob smacked I never said no well as I thought then they will all learn soon enough.
The hardest part for me was with my partner as I think he’s always had it easy with me and he was the one to take it the hardest and still does plus he always tells me he feels like he is a casual sex relationship now rather than anything else, to which I point out there’s the door go through it and don’t bother coming back.
You see for me sex is something I love to bits and can never get enough but at the same time I want to feel wanted rather than it being a routine every night doing the same things over and over again, so maybe he doesn’t like the new me but what he doesn’t realise is I have a lot of plans in store to spice the bedroom up and if he can cope with the new me then he will enjoy it otherwise if he can’t I will find someone who can.